Wednesday, August 29, 2001
ok well this is my first posting on this blob thing. Thanks to cindy i know have the chance to share my feelings with people i dont even know!! yay! she told me tha the only person that i know that is reading this is her, and all the rest are her friends or the unknown public. So hmm...i dont really know what to say so i'll say what ever comes to my mind. well school is coming up soon. i was more excited about a week ago, but since i went shopping i remembered all the stupid teachers like mr.o'niel. I've met a lot of annoying teachers but mr.o'niel was a whole different story. I know all you people who know him think hes gay, but i'm sure that he's gay! not that theres anything wrong with it!! but its just that hes so.. i dont even know the word!! all i can think of is fucked up! anywyas, enough about teachers.. who are all you people reading this? k umm.. i dont do drugs or adrink or anything like that, so basically i am a good girl!! lol! well i wouldn't phrase it ike that, its just that i used to do things like that in the psat and then everyting all around me got fucked up, and i decided to leave it all. It worked out pretty good, my grades went up, i could actually talk to the people around me without this voice in my head trying to convince me these people weren't actually my friends, that they were ugly, fat, disgusting, weird, irty, when they were just normal people. I dont know what that was, Sounds prety crazy even to myself. When i left all the crap and nonsence around me it left too. The only things that are left with me are the bad memories.. the things i did that i never should have.. sometimes when i'm trying to go to bed i cant go to sleep because they keep invading my mind. I'm lucky i cant remeber half the things i did! well anyways i'm going to call it a night, gotta wake up early tomorrow, get to work on time, i'll make sure to write here tomorrow!
:: posted by Anonymous, 12:55 AM